First few weeks of prep

March 22, 2022

You may wondering why the countdown started at 7 weeks versus a traditional 12 week prep.

The reality is that I’ve been at a deficit for almost 6 months lifting 5x a week plus 5 days of cardio and consistently counting macros. When I started preparing to compete our target show was Summer 2022. There is development still to be done but this journey will be all about continuous improvement so stage experience and getting feedback now is the plan versus waiting a few more months.

My first prep

The psychology of telling your brain “you can’t have that” plays wicked tricks on you. We cut carbs by 25 grams the first week (1/2 c rice or English muffin for perspective) and it was quite an adjustment for me. I was hungry and my cravings continue to be wild. I’ve literally had a cheat meal a week for months so losing this was also an adjustment. Now I can’t drive down the street without fantasizing about meals at every restaurant. I would take a Blooming Onion from Outback (haven't had one in at least 6 years), pizza from anywhere, donuts (don’t even like them) and I am positive I could devour a Double-Double in under 20 seconds. I tell myself everyday that I will be able to have pizza again so my grieve doesn't consume me!

I lost 3 lbs in 5 days after first reducing carbs. We carb loaded after 5 days, spiking intake by 75 grams. I was not allowed a “cheat meal” but enjoyed several English muffins and toast. I was full and happy.

March 14, 2022

I only weighed 0.2 more on Sunday which was surprising but great to see myself holding at my lowest weight in the 130’s. Typically after a cheat meal, my weight would increase 1.5 - 2 lbs and +1 lb after a carb heavy day.

I have referenced my weight loss but never disclosed my specific weight. The main reason why I do not discuss this number is because it isn't relevant to anyone but me nor does it hold much importance to my goal. I am 5'6" for reference and have never weighed 130 lbs in my adult life. While it was exciting and gratifying to watch the number on the scale decrease over the past months, I am now at a point where it is a simply a number. The scale does not dictate how I feel or my worth. I believe my mindset shifted because I am truly satisfied with my body and I am grateful for this healthy perspective. I was happy in the mid-130's as well and honestly ecstatic when I hit 139. It will be interesting to see where I stabilize post-show but the goal will always be to love my body regardless of weight.

Here are my observations for Week 1 & 2 of Prep:

Weight is back down to 130 but I continue to look leaner; “drying out”

A few upward blips due to GI issues. Yes, we have to talk about the potty, people. I’m slowing down so we’ve added Metamucil and a GI supplement. Hopefully this helps my “situation.”

Abs are popping but weren’t when we first cut carbs
Energy is lower. I often take a nap in the afternoon. I now have pre-workout in the morning and a black cold brew in the afternoon to get through the day
I feel weaker when lifting and struggle with normal weight
New “lines” developing around my hip flexor; quad is becoming more defined and arms are leaner
Mood has been emotional. I often cry making my 'before & after reels.' Anything that shows how far I’ve come brings tears. I am getting frustrated easier as well. ANGER LEVEL RISING!
I cannot visualize my “peak” body. I really have no idea what the final package will look like but I am truly pleased about how I look right now.
Social Media - as I get closer to competing I’ve recognized that looking at other competitors was making me feel negative and doubtful. In full transparency, I want to support the community but I’ve limited my content intake. The only package I will focus on is mine; no distractions and no doubt.

I got my bikini last week and wore it to posing for the first time. I absolutely love it. I wore my jewelry too making it a real dress rehearsal. If I were competition tan and on stage right now I would be proud of the package I brought with no regrets. Of course I will continue to develop my glutes and hamstrings but for a first-time competitor I feel great about who I am bringing to the stage.